two.

dedicated to someone special.

i can't believe i'm saying this, but i want you out of my life. we've had our good times, and a great amount of our bad ones too. to think that we could atleast be friends, is not even possible anymore. i don't know who you are, or what you've become, but you really need to get a good look at yourself and see how pathetic you look and come off to be. i've sacrificed so much for you, and i don't think you even realize that. i can't believe how stupid i was to even listen to you like i was some dog on a leash. you don't know how much i gave up, just to make you happy. all my friends were against it, but i had hope in you. i went against them, and i believed in you. that just goes along with many of my mistakes on the list. at the same time, i lowered myself to your level, and got mistreated as if i were nothing, yet i still continued, hoping that it would make a difference to you, or maybe you'd realize that i was still here. yeah, i made mistakes too, but that doesn't give you the right to walk all over me like i'm useless shit. i don't know what made me keep on going. well buddy, i hope you have a good life, because this is it. what the hell was i thinking to ever believe that there was more to where we started.


other than that, life is good. the weather is cold. and i'm going to bed. thank you to those who are reading! i'll have a real entry tomorrow. necessary ventage was needed tonight.